It has come to my attention that in fewer months than I think I will have to make a decision regarding what to do after TFA. After. As though there’s an end to this craziness.
I have a degree in ballet and a certification in secondary math. I love to organize and analyze, I love my students, and I love to work. I hate when other people don’t know what they’re doing/don’t have their stuff together, I hate when people misuse data, and I hate the difficulty I find in making math lessons creative and making my students passionate about numbers. I love the kids, and I’m beginning to hate the adults.
I have awesome co-workers on the whole, don’t get me wrong. I wouldn’t be teaching this year if not for the amazing 2010 CMs at my school with me. However, I am getting tired of all the bureaucratic messiness of the district and my school. I’m tired of being promised things that don’t happen. I’m beyond frustrated that I can’t teach be the best possible teacher because of other adults–their systems, their structures, their schedules, their red tape. I just want to teach!
Teach dance! This has always been my plan of course, but I considered spending another year teaching math. I do love mathematics, and it’s still a possibility. But my passion is dance, and I have such a desire to bring dance to students who don’t have access to it otherwise. Most low-income schools don’t even have dance programs, so I aspire to start them. Plus I would be isolated from most of the adult crap that happens in a school. No department meetings, no progress monitoring, no testing pressure, no one to come into my room and collaborate/complain. Just me and the art of dance.
Doesn’t that sound great? Starting dance programs in low-income schools where students are not exposed to art.
Now I have to figure out how to do that…